Couldn’t Have Saved You

It's already been 6 years
since you decided to leave
Feels like a lifetime ago
but also like yesterday

Rebuilt your site on SquareSpace
because WordPress kept crashing
I know you'll never see it
Yet still I hope you approve

I added some old music
that wasn't up there before
You weren't proud of that time
But hey, you left me the keys

Ultimately I know that
you trusted me with your life
Though I couldn't have saved you
that night still haunts me sometimes

Talked you off the ledge before
This time it was different
I try not to have regrets
Wish I could re-do that call

But even if I would have
connected the dots sooner
I was two hours away
and you had a gun in hand