Done Feeling Guilty

thought I was done feeling guilty
logic tells me there is no point
those final weeks were difficult
did what I thought best at the time

some who knew him would understand 
those who didn't simply couldn't
one of his pawns for a short time 
until he snapped then I wasn't

some things that I had to go through
most painful way to learn lessons
three years later, grief still exists
moved on but will never forget