Triggers

It's been awhile since I've dug so deep
I am feeling restless
I wonder how I ever got pulled in
When I knew you couldn't be faithful

The cicadas haunt me
They bring me back to that night
How many years will I have to hear them
Before I’m no longer triggered?

Even if I could have stopped you
I wonder how long you would have lasted
I think of projects unfinished -
Will they ever be completed?

You were a beautiful disaster
No one could have saved you
So many lessons I've learned but still:
Nobody should have sold you a gun